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my screams
(Wednesday, October 26, 2005-)
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* [ bALiK pO mUna!... ]-
bALiK pO mUna akO sA oLd sKiN kO...
bEcAusE i'M hAviNg a prObLem abOut it...
eDit kO nALaNg pO uLet bLoG kO aftEr oUr exAmiNatiOns...
sEe yAh!!!
tAtaHhh!!!
tHAnkS fOr viSitiNg mY bLoG!!!
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(Saturday, October 22, 2005-)
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* [ it wAs fUn!!!... ]-
yEs!!! i'vE wOn tHe pOstEr mAkiNg cOntEst,, bUt i diDn't mAkE it aS rAnK nUmbEr oNe!... i'm tHe fOurtH pLacE... i thOuGht i cOuLd mAkE it tO tHe firSt pLacE.. bUt it'S okAy! ^_^ it wAs hELd tHiS mOndAy,, aNd tHe awArdiNg's yEstErdAy - fRidAy - tOgEtHer witH tHe sinG aNd dAncE cOmpEtitOn..
spEakiNg.. oUr sEctiOn hAd mAny pArtiCipAntS fOr tHe evEnt.. hEy! it wAs fUn!! wE hAvE sO mAny tO chEer fOr,,..
fOr tHe siNgiNg cOmpEtitiOn, wE hAvE 2 cLaSsmAtEs whO pArtiCipAtEd tHeiR.. tHe firSt oNe,, tHe sOundS mEn pLayEd tHe wRoNg minUs oNe!!! sH*t fOr tHem?! hOw cOuLd tHey!!!... bUt stiLL oUr cLaSsmAtE sAng hEr bEst. tHe sEcOnd,, sHe sEemS tO bE aCtiNg fUnNy tO otHerS,, bUt nO! shE'S sEriOus.. sHe rEaLLy fEeLs tHe sOnG!!! hAhaHaHhh!!! it'S nAtUrAL tO hEr.. sHe aLwAys LiKeS tO hAvE fUn, it sEemS sHe dOn't hAvE anY prObLeM iN LifE. sO wHen sHe aCtS sEriOuSLy, otHErs tHoUgHt sHe's nOt.. hiHiHiHiHhh..
- i rEmeMbEr tHe cOntEstAnt #5 of tHe fiRst yEar LevEL,, sHe sAng onE Of aEgiS' sOngs.. i dOn't kNow tHe titLe, aNd i dOn't f^Ck_n' bOtHer tO knOw.. :P sHe drOvE mE crAzy!!! wAhaHahAHhh!!! i dUnNo!!! at firSt,, wHEn sHe stArtEd siNginG, mY hEad aChEs!!! bUt tHen, iN tHe midDLe Of tHe sOnG,, i wEnt cRazY.. rEaLLy crAzy aNd wAvEd tHe "Go! Go! You Rock!!!" bAnNeR fOr mY cLasSmAtEs whO arE cOntEstAntS! HaHahAhHhh!!! mY cLaSsmAteS wErE sHoCked aNd LaugHeD! i dUnNo wHy'd i aCtEd tHat tiMe!!! mAybE bEcAusE Of mY hEadAchE! :P -
at LaSt,, aftEr 10 yEars,, tHe dAncE cOmpEtitiOn stArtEd!!! oUr cLasSmAtEs wEre tHe LaSt onE tO dAncE.. sAdLy, tHeiR cOstUmE wEre a No-nO! i tHiNk tHey fOrgOt tO tALk abOut tHeiR cOstuMes.. tHe giRLs jUst wOre a miNisKirT..
= wAit a miNutE,, it'S hApPy tReE fRiEndS at MTV chAnNeL.. =
= hAhAHhh!!! hOw bRutAL iS tHAt!! =
yAn.. aNd tHEn, a sHirt.. *uGh... tHeiR dAncE iS gOod bUt sOmEoNe fOrgOt tHe stEp oR tHe pAir iS advAncE??.. hAaAaYyy... evEn it'S LiKe tHat, wE cHeErEd uP tO oUr LaSt brEatH!
:P
yOu kNow,, i dOn't kNoW wHy mY hEart iS bOunCin' bEcAusE Of hApPinEsS!?! sOmEonE mAdE mY hEaRt hApPy yEstErdAy... nOt bEcAusE Of a bOy,, bUt bEcAusE Of a girL! dOn't tHiNk i'm a LesbiAN!!! >_< style="font-style: italic;">fRiEnd!!! a gOod fRiEnd!!! aNd evEn a vEry vEry gOod fRiEnd!.. shE's nicE,, aWesOme.. aHiHiHiHh!!! c: i'M hApPy sHe'S hApPy tO sEe hEr >>tOot toOt<< style="font-style: italic;">tHanK yOU!! tHanK yOu!! tHanK yOu!!! tHaNk yOu!!! i LovE yOu tOo!!! >wAhpAaAaKkk!!!< =)
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* [ jEfF... ]-
hAaAYyy.. jEfF tExtEd mE LaSt oCt. 17,.. hE grEetEd mE.. aSkEd mE iF i'm okAy.. aNd evEn aSkEd iF i stiLL LovE hiM,,...
oCt. 18, hE cAlLeD,, fRoM aNtipOLo.. at LaSt, i aLrEadY sAid tO hiM tHat 'i hAvE sO mAnY tHiNgs tO sAy tO hiM,, sO i hOpE wE'lL mEet sOmE tiMe..' hE jUst sAid 'okAy'... tHen LatEr, hE tExtEd mE agAiN.. hE sAid tHat 'i mUst tAkE cArE Of mYsELf bEcAusE hE dOn't wAnt aNytHiNg bAd wiLL haPpEn tO mE,, aNd bEcAusE hE iS stiLL HerE, tO LovE mE...' thEn i rEpLieD 'okAy.. yOu kNow wHat, i hAd aN iNtEntiOn Of brEakiNg uP wiTh yOu.. bUt i rEaLizEd i'm afRaiD tO LooSe yOu...'
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(Tuesday, October 18, 2005-)
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* [ a gOod sOng... mY fAvOtritE sOng... ]-
I want to live forever
Inside the nights and days.
Wishing on a silver cloud,
Crawling across the moonbeams.
A summer night in heaven
Between the stars and waves.
Race across the old bonfire;
Trample on my heartbeat.
I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But somebody owns you now.
I love you with a fire,
Ablazing till times end
But what good is a heart
When it shudders to speak.
I guess it's too late now.
"I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But (of course) somebody owns you now.
(And) I tried to live somehow
Somebody owns you now"
Somebody owns you now
241 (mY fAvOritE sOng) by rivErmAya
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* [ a sOnG... ]-
sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
we try to hide but always
leave an open door behind
to escape from reality
why are you crying?
why are you crying?
it felt so sure but we said no
we're throwing lies at someone
we don't know, we don't know
from this reality
why cant we risk our lives
for something that we can't deny
we try to run from something
we don't know, we don't know
is this reality?
why are you crying?
i feel so sorry
i feel so sorry
for me..
LifE sUpPort by hALe
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* [ dOn't givE uP... ]-
Hindi mo maintindihan
Kung ba't ikaw ang napapagtripan
Ng halik ng kamalasan
Ginapang mong marahan ang hagdanan
Para lamang makidlatan
Sa kaitaas-taasan, ngunit
Kaibigan
Huwag kang magpapasindak
Kaibigan,
Easy lang sa iyak
Dahil wala ring mangyayari
Tayo'y walang mapapala
Wag mong pigilan ang pagbuhos ng ulan
May panahon para maging hari
May panahon para madapa
Dahil ang buhay natin ay sadyang ganyan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Wag kang maawa sa iyong sarili
Isipin na wala ka nang silbi
San' dambuhalang kalokohan
Bukas sisikat ding muli ang araw
Ngunit para lang sa may tiyagang
Maghintay............
Kaibigan,
Wag kang magpapatalo
Kaibigan,
Itaas ang noo
UmaArAw, umUuLaN by rivErmAya
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(Sunday, October 16, 2005-)
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* [ bAkit gAnUn?!... ]-
bAkit gAnUn?!..
mAgkaibA yUng itSurA nG bLog kO sA firEfOx sA cOmMoN iNtErnEt expLorEr...
ahEeHeEHeEHhhh!!!,,
LaLaNg,,
LiNk niyO pO akO,, LiNk diN kitA,, pAra mAdami akO fRiEndS.. parA hiNdi nA akO mALuNgkOt... Ü
givE yOur cOmMentS... sUgGeStiOns... aNd sEnd tO sQbS [7727]! (hEheHe.. jOkE LaNg pO yAn wALaNg gAnyAn aHhh!!!)
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(Saturday, October 15, 2005-)
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* [ tHe stArS ]-
it'S bEautifUL tO sEe tHe stArS uP tHerE iN tHe skY,,
witH tHe siLeNcE tHat sUrRoUndS
tHe coLd dAwN...
i fELt sO rELaxEd
dEspitE Of bEiNg dEspAir tO bE witH yOu...
sAdnEsS...
aLonE...
cOnfUsiOnS...
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* [ ... ]-
i'm strUmMinG awAy mY prObLemS...
yEt tHey'rE stiLL pLayiNg witHiN mY miNd...
tHey dOn't stOp bUrdEniNg mE...
hELp mE swEep tHem awAy tO tHe spAcE aNd bE LoSt...
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(Friday, October 14, 2005-)
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* [ ZzZzzz... ** ]-
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(Sunday, October 09, 2005-)
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* [ LotsA wOrkS tO dO... ]-
aNd stiLL i'M dOiNg sCraP tHiNgS tHat iS nOt rELatEd tO mY sChoOL wOrkS...
kiNda wAstiNg timE..
LaLaLaHhh~
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* [ wAstiNg tiMe... ]-
piNakyAw kO yUng mGa sErviCeS nG brAvEnEt! ^_^
kAsi mAsaYa akO...
hEheHhh..
wALanG pAkieLamAnaN!!!..
wOhOoHhhh!!!~
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* [ sCrAp ]-
tang ina jeff,, shit,, naiinis ako sa 'yo...
bakit ganun?! manhid ka ba?! mahal mo ba talaga ako?! bakit parang hindi mo man lang naiisip kung bakit sa tuwing lumuluwas ka, atat akong makasama ka?!
hindi mo ba alam na dati pa ako nangangailangan ng presence mo,,physically presence.. mahirap ba yun?! oo nga't nandiyan ka, patawag tawag sa phone,, pero iba pa rin yung hinihingi ko.. tapos kung tumawag ka nga, napakadalang at sandali lang... shems...
eh kung sa malalayong lugar, nakakapunta ka.. eto pang magkapit bayan lang ang lugar ko at yung niluluwasan mo - hindi pa tayo nagkakakitaan! nagkikita nga,, ag labo namang kausap!! sabi mo sa ganitong lugar, tapos malalaman ko na lang na sa ibang lugar ka pala naghihintay.. shit.. tapos, magtatampo ka pa kasi hindi tayo nagkita - sa araw pa na mahalaga sa 'yo.. mukhang sinisi mo pa nga ako nun eh! aba,, kasalanan ko ba iyon?! 'tah...
alam ko't malayong lugar ka namamalagi dahil sa kamag-anak mo. pero sana naman sa pagluwas mo, kahit sandali man lang,, pag bigyan mo ako sa hinihingi ko.
alam ko may pinupuntahan kang iba pang kamag-anak,, pero pano naman ako? - habang buhay na magtitiis na ganito? habang buhay na isipin at intindihin nalang mga rason mo?!
sana naman kahit papaano maawa ka naman sa akin... ayan na,, kahit hindi tama,, hindi patas,, nagmamakaawa na ako...
mababaw? mababaw ba? mababaw na dahilan?
sa tingin ko hindi. kasi kasama naman yun sa isang relationship hindi ba?!
..hindi ba?..
.........hindi ba...
inisip ko nga minsan, "kami pa ba?!"
buti nga't kahit papano ay nabubuhayan pa ako ng loob kapag nagtetext sa akin ang kaibigan mo at nagsasabi tungkol sa 'yo.. mga nangyayari sa 'yo...
inisip ko na 'to simula pa lang.. inisip ko na na mangyayari ang mga komplikadong bagay na 'to sa relasyon nating tulad nito...
pero may pagkakataon naman hindi ba?.. nasasayang lang. at ikaw.. ikaw ang nagsasayang nun...
ako na nga halos gumagawa ng paraan na magsama tayo, kahit kaunting oras lang,, kaso ano?!! wala ka...
hindi ka pumunta nung minsan.. naghintay ako... umasa.. wala...
hindi ka ba nangungulila?.. hindi ba?
..hindi ba..?.
ako..oo.. oo! matagal na.. sawang-sawa na nga ako eh.. sawa na..
pero heto pa rin ako,, pilit na tinatanggal at kinakalimutan ang pangungulilang iyon.. pinipilit na itago ang nais makuha... pangungulila..
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(Wednesday, October 05, 2005-)
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* [ oH bOtHer... ]-
i wAnt tO eNd mY LifE...
tO eNd tHiS fEeLiNg i cAn't expLaiN...
i cAn't tAkE it aNymOrE!!!..
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* [ i wAs tHis mAn... ]-
.Your past life diagnosis :
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Central Africa around the year 1175.
Your profession was that of a handicraftsman or mechanic.Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Seeker of truth and wisdom. You could have seen your future lives. Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You fulfill your lesson by helping old folks and children. You came to this life to learn to care about the weak and the helpless.
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* [ LovE aNd fRiENdsHip ]-
Love and Friendship
Friendship is a quiet walk in a park with the one you trust.
Love is feeling as if you are the only two around.
Friendship is someone gazing into your eyes and your knowing he or she cares.
Love is someone gazing into your eyes, and it warms your heart.
Friendship is being close even you are far apart.
Love is still feeling his or her hand on your heart when the person is not near.
Friendship is hoping that he or she experiences the very best.
Love is bringing him or her the very best.
Friendship occupies your mind.
Love occupies your soul.
Friendshipis knowing that you will always try to be there when needed.
Love is when giving up everything to be at his or her side.
Friendship is a warm smile in the winter.
Love is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart.
Love is a beautiful smile to which nothing compares, a tender laugh which opens your heart, a single touch that melts away your fears, a smell that reminds you of the tenderness of a heaven, a voice that reminds you of the innocence of youth.
Friendship can survive withoutLove
Love cannot live without Friendship
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* [ sChOoL... sChOoL... sChOoL... ]-
sHeEsShhh...
it'S bEeN a hEctiC sChEd!..
i'm LoAdEd uP witH hOmEwOrkS aNd prOjEcts...
wE'rE sUpPoSed tO bE rEStiNg tHis cOmiNg iNtrAmurALs dAy...
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(Saturday, October 01, 2005-)
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* [ nEw ]-
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